On a rainy night exactly a year ago, I left everything for which I had worked so hard. I thought it was an ending, but it was really a beginning.
I did not realize that I had forgotten EVERYTHING that was important to me:
How much I love yoga;
How much I love family;
How much I love horses;
How much I love being outside.
I sacrificed a lot for what I thought was my dream.
I remember having a conversation with a friend, saying I just want to remember what happy feels like. Happy for no reason. Not because of a good date, a good dance, good food, good sex…just HAPPY. Peace. I could not even remember that. What did it feel like?
I was driving home tonight from my moms house and I felt HAPPY, for no reason. Just singing along with the radio…happy.
I do yoga now.
I spend more time with family.
I get to play with horses.
I hike and go camping, and just take walks.
I am living my dream, because I am living in the now.
I am present. I am enough. I am love.
Don’t get me wrong, I have dark days and sometimes wonder why I am here in this South Carolina town. Then I remind myself it is to remember who I am, so I can BE.
My yoga teacher and friend ALWAYS says the saying “root down to rise up.” I am putting my roots down, so I can RISE up…and show the world a thing or two. Show the world ME, because that is the greatest gift I can give.